This time next week, I will be en route to Israel. More accurately, I will be enjoying a 3 hour lay-over at JFK airport, but big picture, will be traveling. That fact that it is so soon, considering that there was a nearly 6 week break between school ending and the fellowship beginning, makes me very aware of a concept I fail to grasp: time.
It feels like I was just in Ann Arbor, taking Calculus practice tests, receiving dozens of TAMID e-mails a day, the fellowship still abstract, a thing in the distant future. Even stranger, I clearly remember first semester: moving in, learning my way around campus, my first visit to Hillel where I went 25 minutes out of the way because I had no idea just how close everything on central really is…
This may not seem noteworthy to some people–the time part, not my poor sense of direction. So what? Time move fast, no big deal. Right? Wrong. Time moves fast, yes. But it is what happens in those hours, days and months that slip by seemingly unnoticed that make us who we are. Living in the moment, time can seem to drag on…take those calculus practice tests as a prime example. But even in the boring times, there are things to be learned.
In the past 4 1/2 weeks, as I counted down the days until June 2 (7 left!), and did very little else, I learned things. In between the odd waitressing shift at my old job and running miscellaneous errands to FINALLY acquire business casual attire, I discovered things. About my family, who I saw less frequently during the year, but have had non-stop bonding time with, and about myself. I also learned that time flies whether you’re having fun or not. The blasé days, action-packed days and every-adjective-in-between days all blend together over the past month.
Where am I going with this? Time flies. It is a fact of life I have to learn to accept whether I agree with/understand it or not. The seconds may seem to drag when anticipating something fantastic (like Israel), but before I know it I will be on that plane, eastbound. There is nothing I can do to make time speed up or slow down, but what I can do is be aware of it and be aware of where I am at each moment. That is what I can take with me this summer, an awareness of my surroundings so I can learn to appreciate where I am at all times.
Time is going to go by whether we like it or not, why not make the best of it?